Without Him There Would Be No You

[1018pm] before 2006 it was just me but on September 18, 2006 i was given the greatest gift, my son of course. No one comes into this world without two parents, whether they are together or not, if you call him a sperm donor, or even a dead beat it takes two to make one.

no matter where i am or what i'm doing when i look at my son i see his father. no just because he looks like him and nothing like me lol but because he is a part of him. my son is the greatest joy in my life and without his dd he would not be here has anyone every sat there and wondered that? like the greatest joy of my life is all due to one person, his dad. no matter what me and my sons father may go through i will always be thankful to him, how can i not!

there are so many moms out in this world whether old or young who take the father of their child for granted. how can you, i know i don't or ever will! the air that my son breathes is partly because of him. i hope we can stay together forever but God forbid we don't the way i view him will never change. regardless if we should come to bad terms or worse i will still be thankful to him for giving me my little boy.

i NEVER thought i could love someone this much!

[823pm] What do you love more than anything in this world? Is it popularity, money, jewelry, nice cars, or even that latest fashions. Not everyone can say they have someone they love more than life itself. I was blessed to have that amazing feeling, loving my son more than anything.

If you are a parent, godparent, someones child, or whatever the case may be you can understand where I'm coming from. Before having my son I always knew I loved my mother to death and even my family. Still to this day I will say the same but something is different. When my son was born it was like all the love I had was only for him. I would do anything for him, I would die for him! How can you not love someone unconditionally when you know you brought them into the world.

I was a good kid but not a perfect kid and I did somethings to annoy my mom. What teenager doesn't do that to their parents. When I was younger I thought she was so annoying and just bothering me for her own personal kicks lol. OMG! But as I got older and I had my own child I realized she loved me more than anything. In my eyes my son can do no wrong. Coming home pregnant at 18 didn't please her but I saw she really loved me because she supported me the whole way. Some people are unfortunate and get treated like crap for making a mistake but I was blessed. We all make bad judgements but you know you are unconditionally loved when your parents are always there no matter what. That is something I never take for granted!

To love someone unconditionally is the greatest feeling in the world. And to know that they will always love you in return is what keeps me going everyday.

Escape

[805pm] Have you ever just shoved your face in your pillow and scream or even let out a good yell while taking a shower? I can honestly say I've done that on more that one occasion. Sometimes everyone needs an Escape just to get away from it all.

Life has its challenges and sometimes it can be a bit to much for you. There have been times that I have been by myself for hours at a time and even when I went away to the Bahamas for a few days, all I kept thinking to myself was finally I get some time to breathe. But the only thing I could find myself thinking about were the things that I was trying to get a break from. Was the house clean, did I do this or did I do that, and mostly I could not help but think about my little man.

You really can't help about thinking of something so much if its all your life is consumed by. And especially if its something or someone that has your heart.

Thank You!

[338pm] Hi everyone, well the few that read my blog. I just want to say thank you for even taking the time out to read it. At first I figured I'd blog about my life only but that didn't work out. As you can see through such short time my blog has taken many shapes. I figured why not just write about me but all the fun, crazy, upsetting, sad, and even opinionated things that go on in my head. You can see it will have a very wide range of topics. So be for warned that vampires and my life's stories are just the beginning.


Jacqie <3

Just Imagine

[144pm] "EXPELEARMUS!" If you have seen any Harry Potter films or have read the books you should be able to recognize that word easily. "I vhant to suck your blood," classic wouldn't you say. Just imagine if some of that stuff was really real.

I would consider myself to be quite the avid reader of topics like this. From witches and warlocks to vampires and werewolves I LOVE IT! Who doesn't love it these days its become a huge craze. The idea of immortality is what keeps me and a lot of other readers coming back for more. The whole world knows immortality is only a fantasy. The idea of being able to walk the earth for all time and to never die is a wasted thought, IMPOSSIBLE. But your imagination will do just fine. I swear if it were true I would have casted a few spells on some people now lol.

Although its all fake what if all these centuries of burning witches at the stake and the thousands upon thousands of stories were all just a cover-up. One day you wake up and turn to the news and the first thing you hear is "vampires do exist, I repeat vampires do exist." Everyone would laugh and think nothing of it until it was straight pandemonium. Would you jump at the chance to be immortal? I would but I wouldn't. Some of the people you love might not want the same thing as you do, immortality. Could you live forever and watch them all age and then die while you never change.

I know wild imagination right, lol. My friend "Maurice" would understand me 100% =). And I know there are millions out there who think the same as me but are afraid to tell it. So just let your mind wonder for once and "Just Imagine," you'll enjoy it!

Death Before Dishonor.....

What if "Death Before Dishonor," really meant that in this day and age? At some point in time if a person ever were to betray their family, clan, following, club, troop, etc. they would be put to death. The simplest crime could get you hung, shot, or even beheaded. Do you know how many people would be dead right now for being disloyal.

Sad to say some people out here don't even know the meaning of loyalty. The textbook definition of loyalty is the state or quality of being loyal; faithfulness to commitments or obligations. Loyalty for me is RIDE OR DIE! Can you honestly say that you will stand behind your man, family, and even friends no matter what? When you hold a commitment to someone whether it be a relationship, your family, or even a friendship nothing should make you disloyal. Now I'm not going to write this and act like little miss perfect because no one is perfect. One thing I can say is I know where my loyalty lies. I know that if my boyfriend comes home and says he committed a crime, I'm going to have his back and the same goes for my family and a few close friends. When it comes to loyalty it does all depend on your bond with those you are comitted to. I will say though bonds can be broken and thats a guarentee.

So where does your loyalty lie and can you honestly say DEATH BEFORE DISHONOR!

BAD BITCH NO MUZZLE!

[1108pm] For years, decades, generations, and even centuries females have had an anthem. "RESPECT" Aretha Franklin for our back in the day chicks and even "INDEPENDENT WOMAN" Destiny's Child (well just about all their songs lol). Now I think there is a new twist to a chicks empowering song, Miss Nicki Minaj "GO HARD."

"GO HARD," has that rugged sex appeal to it. Every chick out there has to relate to that song to some extent, shit I know I do. I may not be hood or I may not in a sense go hard, but I do know I stand my ground. In this song she is saying she represents for who she is and she goes hard to let it be known. We've all cried our last tear and were ready to say I'm holding down my own. In a sense chicks go hard regardless! We go hard for looks, fashion, status, and so much more. What do you go for? I go hard for my family and my self respect! No chick out there should really have to go hard to prove ANYTHING! I don't have to say shit to anybody because I know I'm so hard, LMAO. Don't underestimate! (woo that's a whole lot of exclamation points hehehehe)

Stand yah ground ladies and let the world know "you can hate me but why knock my hustle; I'ma be a queen no matter how they shuffle....I'm a bad bitch no muzzle!"